I noticed a connection between the words approval and prove - that had not occurred to me before.
The two set an interdependent in a negative frame. That to have approval I must prove myself, yet this is a futile task. My identity should not be scaffolded by others approval that I must first evidence.
My subconscious harangues me…
“If you really are…
…an artist
…intelligent
…likeable
…worthy to do an MA”
>>>Or insert any other angst based self-defeating doubt>>>
…then prove it…(by fact based action…)
It seems the moment we step out, we come under unfair and unjust scrutiny. Rather than be encouraged to take risks, make new work or suggest a new way. Eeverything must be first justified and evidenced.
Prove///Approve - it’s a shitty equation.
How would you describe 'a healthy artistic environment’?
One free from the need to prove myself.
Challenging yet collaborative.
A space where risks are taken.
A fringe space liberated from standard cultural capital.
Thinking about what my fellow students are doing to enhance my social and learning experiences; What do I most value in them?
Honest, challenging and rigorous discussion.
Experience beyond my own frame.
Kindness and understanding.
Thinking about what I am doing to enhance my fellow students social and learning experiences; What do they most value in me?
Experience outside of themselves.
Kindness and understanding.
Honest, challenging and rigorous discussion.
Sorry to be cheesy but I can’t ask something of someone I’m not prepared to give myself.
///Currently reading:::
Theastre Gates:::Carol Becker, Lisa Yun Lee, Achim Borchardt-Hume