Not deconstructing just dismantling.
Derrida says everything is divisible, so I divided the canvas into threads warp and weft. It could continue reducing to finer fibres, then to chemical compounds///atomic structure///neutrons and protons///up quarks and down quarks and gluons///
I liked the stages of undoing. An abandon to the process and loss of form and purpose, yet still remaining with some memory of self. I could paint 4 canvases and dismantle 1. As a set. All equal in the sum of their ‘constituent parts’. The Horizontal and Vertical. Undoing.
(I also felt ridiculous doing it, like I was performing being an artist, really an imposter. Trying so hard to be conceptual - I’m not convinced - It feels smug and empty at the same time.)
Taking photos as the canvas eroded and reverted to threads. A partial dismantling - the first division.
I’m not sure I understand deconstruction or Derrida anymore. I read him and think I grasp it then when I got back I have no idea how I thought what I did.
Read Anthony Gormley today - I love his drawing and felt encouraged by how he’s free to draw and let the connection to his more involved sculpture work itself out. The are ties between the two practices but not always immediate or linear.
Reading/// Derrida’s ‘Letter to a Japanese friend’. /—— again
Researching/// Matthew Barney. I love the vast expanse of his narratives, along with the interconnected themes that relate and reference. His work had such a strong relationship to materials, although I know a lot of his work is made for him, which I would find hard - not to get my hands dirty but have someone else make my work..
Things I want to make:
Stick bundle
Bundle drawings
Immerse installation
Etched copper tubes
Stick feathers -wood and plaster
Bundle and wall set
Small natural linen drawings
Axe for an angel - etch on axe cheek.
Immerse diagram drawings
Portraits
Large wing drawing representational to abstract.
Plaster sculpture abstract for. With inserts.
Large gestural drawings